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i know that something is wrong and i am trying to fix it. the problem is i haven't really put much effort into fixing it before. but as time passes by, i realize that i am missing out on so many things and ways that God wants to use me by just sitting back and letting life happen. this is such a strange place that i am in right now in my life. and the people who are seeping in are even stranger. my brain feels like it is going to combust because there is too much being fed into it by people who have no right to it in the first place. i am too affected by this world around me. and i all too often want to make great choices and decisions depending on how things appear to be moving around me. i need to really REFOCUS and remember to take guidance from Him first, and not chance what direction to head to next.