the lost boys

what does He do when people deny He exists? how could we?

i have seen His great creation. it is all around me. and i have heard His voice on more than one occasion. and what of the peace that He gives? how could anyone trade that for an unknown, unstable internal being? i think people spend too much time looking at other people. if someone in the faith falls, then they blame it on their beliefs, and then God, and then they stop believing. this tells me that they really weren't serving Him whole-heartedly.


people will always let you down. they key is to not put your faith in people.

but i keep knowing these people who knew God, and served Him, and even brought others to Him, but are know claiming to be atheist, and that He never existed in the first place.

how can you deny truth? especially the truth that you were once apart of? it breaks my heart and i wonder what i can do? i mean, this isn't just social obligations. they are too busy wondering of who will accept them and who they will be accepted by. but this is more than level playing fields, this is about eternal souls! do they stop and think deep down that they may be staring into the face of hell? or that they are leading others there?

when we walk around carrying these spirits, housed in fleshy bodies, do they sense the weightiness; the battle waring within them, asking them to come home?

it is not all a lie. why not take the chance? why not try to live a righteous life? if anything, if you just took the bible for the bare minimal, it would teach you how to love your brother. why not take it for all it's worth?

this comes from finding out that several people i knew once, have all denied their faith and proclaimed that God is not real. i did not know them too well, but it has shook me. it has made me realize how important it is to follow Christ. how lethal it is to throw yourself out into nothing. and how grateful i am to know Him. not that i am any better than them who deny Christ. we are all human, but i will do the best thing i feel to do and pray for those who weigh on my heart.

knowing

i think that sometimes irony is just truth making it's way to you by grabbing your attention in an odd way.

i know when i am being fooled and tricked. but still i skip down the path with the wolf because i want things to be more interesting than they currently are.

i do not want to compromise. and life is overwhelming me.

through it all, i want to insure that i know who i am, right now, in this moment. i know that i will change, little by little, over the years. gaining different views and experiences on things. but who am i right now?

one thing i do not want to falter on is my faith. although i have been lazy recently. we truly are our own demise. the reason why i am not getting anywhere is because i am not doing anything about it. not that i have to do everything, but i do have to initiate the movement.

sometimes i wonder if He looks at me and thinks, "what on earth is she doing? why does she knowingly run around in circles?".

to this i say: know who God is. know He is good, and wants good things for you.
and know that He truly, unconditionally, immeasurably loves you, and me.

and then you will start knowing who you are.