knowing

i think that sometimes irony is just truth making it's way to you by grabbing your attention in an odd way.

i know when i am being fooled and tricked. but still i skip down the path with the wolf because i want things to be more interesting than they currently are.

i do not want to compromise. and life is overwhelming me.

through it all, i want to insure that i know who i am, right now, in this moment. i know that i will change, little by little, over the years. gaining different views and experiences on things. but who am i right now?

one thing i do not want to falter on is my faith. although i have been lazy recently. we truly are our own demise. the reason why i am not getting anywhere is because i am not doing anything about it. not that i have to do everything, but i do have to initiate the movement.

sometimes i wonder if He looks at me and thinks, "what on earth is she doing? why does she knowingly run around in circles?".

to this i say: know who God is. know He is good, and wants good things for you.
and know that He truly, unconditionally, immeasurably loves you, and me.

and then you will start knowing who you are.