rest

my failure to rest on God just leads to my own demise. i have been so impatient lately. thankfully, He has showed me where i have faltered. sometimes placing affections and praise on things that don't really matter in this world. why do i think i can do it better than He can? He knows the plans He has for me, and they are good. i think primarily my struggles come from the fact that i have difficulty embracing the one elementary element that comes with this faith walk...that He loves me. that His grace is sufficient, although i do not want to solely rely on grace. i guess things finally got into perspective when i read some things from a teen devotional written by kenneth and gloria copeland. how in giving His Son, God gained back tons of sons and daughters. the greatest act of love for us. it seems so simple but it is so hard for me to grasp. i am sure i am trying too hard to fathom it and just need to let go, accept it, and rest in His love.