birth day battle

there is a battle going on between who i am and who God wants me to be and who i think i should be. His way is best, but i am eased into hard-headedness. eased into the easy. to do things the easy way: sleep in, run around, laugh with the jokers and scoff with the snobs. the righteous life is not easy. was it easy for Christ to live life the way He did? we are to live Christ-like lives. we are born into flesh and our flesh tries to bring us down. it is easy to give in to sin. to live as the world lives. but His yoke is easy and His burden is light. if i could just get that into my head>>>>>>>>yes it is hard to live life justly, but the reward far outweighs the means. peace, love, eternity. why can i not choose these instead of what i've been choosing? i know what is true and right, but i get so frustrated when i look around me and see how things are going. i must not judge things by what i see, or what i feel, or even what i think i know, but by His holy revelation through His word and the spirit He has placed in me. easier typed than done. today is my birthday. feliz.