rotten teeth

i think it's funny that just when you decide you don't need something and try to cut it out of your life, it becomes openly available to you. for instance, one week i decided to give up sugar completely, which also meant my beloved chocolate. but come monday my mother buys tons and tons of chocolate and tells me i can have it for the rest of the week! ugh. needless to say i had a week long feast of cocoa and rotting teeth. and just recently i have decided to get back on track and really focus on my lasting relationship with my Father God. this means no more longing for boys who are of "no consequence". not even allowing myself to be detoured by a nice face or deep eyes. and wouldn't you know it? a pierced, tattoo laden semi-sweet boy hits on me. just a week earlier i was emotionally distraught over finding a "diversion" to surrender to. and although he is pretty (like WAY pretty. like trouble pretty. like please don't ask me again or i might say yes pretty), this could not have come at a worse time. things i didn't even expect or ask for started popping up. like a girl who hit on me, too. it was very awkward. i know my sisters say i dress like a lesbian sometimes, but i am definitely not one. it's like the sly deviant is trying any thing possible to slip me up. but there are just too many benefits here i'm standing.